Monday, July 17, 2017

Hello World!




Wow, so I finally did it. After years (literally, shamefully years) of talking about starting my own lifestyle blog, I finally bit the bullet and made one. Honestly, though I had always wanted to have my own blog, I never really thought I could keep up with one. One of my biggest downfalls as photographer was keeping up with blogging sessions. The task always found its way to the bottom of my to-do list and I'd be happy if I managed to pump out 2 blog posts a year. My failure to blog in my profession set me up with some pretty big insecurities about writing about my life.

But before we get into the fun bloggity blog stuff, lets have a little backstory!

Taking photos for others has been such a huge part of my life. For the past 6 years I had let it define me from the moment I started. When I moved to California and started traveling so much more for shoots, things got a little complicated for me. I loved traveling for the job. I loved meeting new people. Spending time with old favorites. I loved the images I was taking. I loved the sense of adventure. But what I didn't love was the ever growing time spent away from my husband. Away from my kids. What I didn't love was that their weekends off were my weekends away documenting another family's memories. I was losing out on my family's memories. I desperately wanted my time back but who was I if I wasn't a successful Girl Boss, busy with clients, 5 sessions behind on editing?! The fear of being perceived as a failure kept me in a pretty dark place. My anxiety was through the roof. The thought of leaving my home made my stomach hurt. I didn't want to touch my camera at all. It took the better half of a year for me to come to terms with the fact that I just didn't want to be in that business anymore. Letting go of that part of my life lifted a huge weight off my shoulders. The time I gained back with my family has meant so much to me. Its super fucking cheesy and cliche, but I really did feel like an entirely new woman. I feel like eventually I'll go back to doing photography as my job. But I don't think I'll ever go back to being defined by photography as my job.

Since leaving that industry I felt that I had so much more to say. Just about my life in general. Being a stay at home mom makes it so hard to get things off my chest. Even if its about how I'm vibin' how glowy my skincare was making me feel. Tiny humans don't give a shit about that kind of thing. My days are filled with endless talk of Plants vs. Zombies and American Girl. I love my kids to death but theres really only so much Minecraft lingo I can take in before my brain literally turns to mush and just oozes out of my ears. Some days I go hours without having an adult conversation out loud. To say I needed this blog like 6 years ago is a complete understatement.

Ultimately I want to use this blog to continue taking photos. But now instead of taking photos of other familys' memories. I want to do that for me. I want to document my daily life. What I like. What I don't like. My intention with this blog is to be as transparent as I can as a simple girl, a mom, a wife, and quite honestly, a lover of material possessions. I want to share with my readers what my life looks on the outside and inside. Thanks for being here, hopefully one of you out there likes this enough to stick around.

Here are a few photos to show you what I'm all about.

DISNEYLAND! We are such a huge Disneyland family <3 






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  1. ❤️ I'm so happy you are doing this! and this post makes me feel less crazy for giving up photography because I was missing my kids games and such. At this point in my life I want to spend as much time with the kids as I can before I become uncool and they want to be with their friends all the time haha

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    1. I totally agree with you Misty! Ultimately my time with my kids is worth more than any monetary value you could throw at me. I can always work later. My babies only stay little once.

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  2. Love everything about this and you, Kaye! <3

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    1. Thanks Sarena!! I'm so glad you're here!

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  3. I'm so thrilled you finally have your blog up and running. I need more friends who blog haha! I look forward to all the future posts. You're going to do great!

    xo
    ohhjuliana.com

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    1. Thank you so much for your support, Juliana! You have always been so amazing and such a huge help! I truly appreciate that <3

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